Posts by John Espy


Tish Warren’s topic this week is “Calling a Friend.”  Just now I was listening to a panel discussion on NPR about the suicides of Anthony Bourdain and Kate Spade.  When asked about the causes for the 30% increase in suicides from 1996 to 2016, Dr. Nadine Kaslow, former president of the American Psychological Assn. said: …things have become less personal. Our communities have become less tight-knit, and it’s much more...

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A few months after my beloved grandfather died in 1975 I had a dream where I saw Jesus. I spent the next several years looking for people with whom I could explore my dream.  What I encountered was one of two reactions: people either nodded, said “Uh huh” and slowly backed away, or they got excited and proceed to tell me that I had met the real, literal Jesus and told me I had to accept him as my personal saviour to insure my...

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I LOVE food! I love to cook! I love to eat! I love all kinds of food from Mexican to Chinese to leftovers to Italian!  There is virtually no food that I don’t like. I just don’t appreciate it. I inhale my food. A couple weeks ago I wrote about my estrangement from my body. My belly is a testament to that estrangement. I have a habit of taking large bites, one or two chews and a swallow, eager to shove in the next bite. Last Christmas...

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My blog post a couple of weeks ago (Repentance is so hard!) was probably a better fit for this week’s topic of “lost keys” (mine was a lost Fitbit), but my point at that time was the revelation of unconscious ritual. In that entry I revealed how hard it is to replace unconscious habits with conscious practices that serve to remind us that we are living in the presence of the Divine. So this week, I want to take a different tack: God...

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This thing keeps following me around. Everywhere I go, there it is. Every time I look in a mirror I am startled to see it, right there, this stranger looking back at me. This stranger is, of course, my body. I’ve been estranged from my body for most of my life. I didn’t do many sports as a kid.  My mother eventually gave up on piano lessons for me. When I tried joining a drumming circle in the 90’s it was readily apparent that I had...

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A couple of weeks ago I misplaced my Fitbit. I was in a bit of a panic — how would I know how many steps I’d taken?  How would I know the quality of my sleep? How would I monitor my heart rate? It took me a couple of days to recall that I’d taken it off in a pub after Wednesday Bible Study(!). With a sigh of relief, I got it back. Last week Pastor Bo challenged us to not use any electronics for an hour or two after we get up in the...

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I’ve been retired just over 18 months. For a couple of years before I retired I started thinking and planning how I would spend my days in retirement. Rather than an end of my career I viewed it as the beginning of a new career, of what I was intended to do in this life, of finally fulfilling my purpose in life. My plans included starting every day with celebration of a new day; daily exercise, meditation, reading more than I had time...

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